Somebody tell me dating is fun. It’s supposed to be fun right? Meeting new people is supposed to be fun, right?

For the last two weeks, I’ve been in death mode. Not really thinking about much beyond my dad. Don’t worry, as soon as I feel I can describe it, I’ll post about it. Anyway, monday, I go from my Mom’s house to my sisters house because she lives closer to the airport.

Tuesday, I get on her computer and check my email and chat friends, as I’ve been out of communication for over a week. Only to find an email from a guy who has seen my yahoo personal ad and wants to say hello. I reply to the email and during the day he replies back. We strike up a conversation and turns out he’s a single dad and is engaging and very interesting. During our conversation his real name gets mentioned a few times, but as I’ve just met him, it doesn’t really sink in yet. We talk during that day and decide that it would be interesting to meet for lunch when I get back. We aim for friday.

Wednesday, I’m finally getting to meet one of my chat friends. He lives in Arizona and only an hour or so from the airport. I’m excited. He’ll be the first person from my chat room that I get to meet in person. I’ve known him for nearly three years. He’s a great guy, on the shy side, but great to talk to. He also gives good hugs. He sees me off and I’m bound for home.

That night, my new friend says hello for a bit then gets off to watch tv. I spend the rest of the time getting alot of hello’s, condolences and “where have you beens” from my friends. It was a good night.

Thursday, My new friend and I start chatting again and we confirm that yes we’ll be meeting for lunch on Friday. We bounce in and out as chat people do. And we come up to Thursday night, I forget his real name. Not that I’ve said it or read it much in the last three days. He gets bothered by the fact that I’m identifying him with his chat name over his real name. Then goes on about how meeting me is a mistake since I can’t remember his name. He goes on about it for a bit and is insulted that I think of him as his chat name in stead of his real name. I’m sitting here confused because I’ve just met him. I barely know him and the whole point of meeting him is to get to know him better. Since he keeps going on about how meeting me is a mistake, I assume he’s cancelled our lunch date.

Friday, I’ve left my computer on all night and my yahoo running. He leaves a snarky comment about it, which makes me smile, but doesn’t mentioned anything about meeting me for lunch, which I take as a second confirmation that he’s cancelled on me.

So now we’re hitting 1pm in the afternoon, I’m busy doing chores and I walk past my computer. I see a message there about how rude it is to stand someone up who waited an hour for me to show up. I immediately sit down and go “what?” I thought you cancelled. He mentions how he did no such thing. I’m like….well when you tell someone it’s a mistake to meet them, I’m going to assume you are cancelling. So I try to apologize, but he’s irritated at being stood up, as he should be, but in this case, it’s a result of miscommunication. He makes an attempt at an insult about how he lives in real life and I don’t. Whatever. However, now I’m irritated, not only that I’ve hurt someone’s feelings unintentionally, but also irritated at this whole dating mess.

I swear…maybe I should just take a serious break from dating anyone. Clearly, I’m not “with it” enough to be part of a real life. I’ve only had a divorce, death and loss of a best friend to deal with. That’s not real life is it? Trying to get school straightened out, my job and getting ready to move in two months? These are clearly not parts of a real life either. I should just stay home all the time and wallow in the tediousness of my life. *rolls eyes*

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