Fun and Frolic and Expectations
Tonight saw me Dj-ing a Sock Hop for an elementary school here in town. Had a ball. So much fun. Lots of kids, lots of parents and everyone got involved and had a good time. I did everything with these kids. And they were so game to try it all. From Limbo to the Bunny Hop, these kids were awesome. Even the boys danced, which doesn’t always happen. I had so much fun.
I also forgot to mention that my new friend and I finally got together for lunch on wednesday. It went very well. He is very cute, very funny and tall. I didn’t mind the kisses either. For a first meeting it went very well. We laughed about the missed lunches, kids and homework, and our jobs. It was relaxed and not stuffy. I was very comfortable. Turns out he has two kids that are exactly the same age. While, I have a boy and girl…he has a girl and boy…but both in the same grades and only a few months apart in birthdays. So that gave us alot of similar things to talk about. Really nice actually. I find that I like single dads. Especially if they have part custody of their children.
I also liked the fact that he was tall, something new for me. I used to be very much intimidated by height, and with my background, much of the results of my trama were seen in the fact that I liked men close to my own height. However, my marriage helped me get over alot of that childhood hurt and I find that age, looks, and height are no longer even issues. It’s all about personality. My comfort zone has clearly been stretched, which is a good thing.
So now we’ll see if there will be any more dates. *shrugs* So far I haven’t seen anyone more then a couple of times. But that is what dating is about right? Finding out what type of people you like.
Now we are coming up to Valentines Day. I’m Dj-ing a dance for my church. So I’m looking forward to that, but I’m not actually looking forward to the day itself. It’s not that I don’t have anyone to give me a present. I understand cards…but gifts? Way too much. I like that fact that there are days to celebrate things….I just don’t like them personally because they always are disappointing. My birthday, Christmas, Valentines….they have been disappointing for years. And it’s not about gifts…it’s about feeling wanted. I will also be the first to say I’m not exactly great in this area, either, so it’s not like I’m expecting something better then what I do. I just hate the fact that I DO have expectations, and I’m always disappointed. Happened when I was a child, happens as an adult. One would think I would figure it out and just not have expectations…but NOOOOOOOOO, no matter what, I always end up with expectations that will never happen.
Of course, now that I’m getting divorced…it just adds an additinal shadow over the day. I feel like such a whiner here…but I can’t help the fact that as the day draws closer, my sense of dread increases.
