ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!!
This post is a rant…a major rant. It’s the feelings of this moment. And they need to be vented.
I discovered wednesday night that I had been assigned a dj event for tonight. If I had known about this sooner, AND if my boss wasn’t out of town, I would have told them that I’m putting my children on a plane to arizona at 4am saturday morning and that I really need to get them ready. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO…by the time I heard the message about this event it was too late to say anything. Not blaming my boss for this though…not his fault…he knows I need the extra gigs, he didn’t know about my kids plane flight since it wasn’t going to interfer with working saturday. And it certainly not his fault that my voice mail is not always relaying messages on time.( I think it has to do with my dsl, not sure as I haven’t figured it out yet.)
To add to it, I have have my pelvic ultrasound this afternoon and because of the last minute notice of this event, I can’t get Greyduck to babysit for me tonight.
But as aggravating as this day has become…nothing, and I repeat NOTHING beats the email and ecard I recieved this morning from DM. Turns out his little computer harddrive was swarmed by too many viruses and they had to reformate his entire harddrive. His computer has been in the shop for a month.
He doesn’t talk to me for weeks before that little harddrive crashed. He sets up bible study times that he never shows up for, he doesn’t even bother to call me for my birthday after I tell him all I want is a birthday phone call and he makes no effort to get in touch with me to let me know what’s up until now….and the card and the email I recieved were along the lines of….”thanks for keeping me in your thoughts and I’ll talk to you soon. Missed you. ” ……what the flipping hell is this?!!!
Yes…he’s been going through a major upheavel in his own life as he completely changes his lifestyle from what it had been…that could explain some of it. I know he kept my number on his computer so that might explain the silence….but not enough of it. Not nearly enough. Between yahoo, my email and my phone number all of which he used frenquently, he could have gotton a hold of me if it was important to him. Especially after all my phonecalls to him and only getting his message box. But to come back and act like everything is okay and he’s only been out of touch a couple of days just bites big time. I want to wrangle his neck. You know..it’s a good thing I’m not his girlfriend for reals or I just might consider putting a price on his head. (chuckles)
It’s days like this when you realize just how much you get walked on. I swear…I’m way too nice. Because I know how I’m going to react to this. I’m going to still be his friend….but I’ll be supportive and understanding….I’ll be supportive and understanding to the other people in my life…..after all, I’m the rock right? I’m the one people come to get support and comfort from. Right?
I think I need a break…from everyone. Good thing my weekend is so busy I’ll be out of touch with everyone anyway. I get to go to Cannon Beach on Saturday so I’ll get some good beach time to sit and watch the waves and just think and get my head cleared. Hopefully my homicidal feelings will be erased by the waves. J/K *chuckles*
