Bizarre Week
Not much has happened this week, really. But it’s been bizarre none the less. I’ve enjoyed the quiet week with no kids and nothing that I really had to accomplish. Got some housework done and unpacked a few boxes I’ve been ignoring. Enjoyed just wasting time this week.
What’s made it bizarre however is the fact that I’ve spoken to DM everyday this week. It’s not for very long, but I’ve been amazed at how easily we’ve stepped back into our comfortable friendship. He’s one of the few people I have always been able to be upfront with. I don’t have to worry about what I say and we’d have lots of stimulating conversations where we could discuss something without one or the other getting possibly defensive. Not many friendships have that.
That being said…His track record hasn’t been too good. I’ve already elaborated in detail what a dork he’s been. So I told him, if you want to be friends, we start from square one. Which he seems fine with and we’ve had some nice conversations this week.
Unlike before however, my heart belongs elsewhere. One of the benefits of my association with BG is that I’ve discovered the joys of talking to someone who’s got the same eternal perspective as I do. I didn’t realize what I was missing out on. Having the same goal in life really makes things nicer. At least you know what the other is striving for. I find that I still love DM, I wouldn’t have hung around all summer if I didn’t, but it’s back to friendship love. I also love BG, but again, it’s friendship love.
Will I lose my whole heart to either of these guys or to none? Only time will tell.
