Tuesday update
Hello readers.
I’ve been pretty busy with trying to get my life going again that I forget that I have this blog to be my journal. Which is the reason I have this thing in the first place. So, lets catch you up, shall we?
At this point in the year, you find me struggling. The babysitting is falling through as a means of additional income. I don’t have the transportation to allow for me to watch more kids. I’m not watching the twins anymore because their mom got approved for state assisted child care and that means that I would have to get state approved to babysit. No thanks. I don’t need more headaches for a temporary situation.
I’m almost all signed up for school. I just have to get my measles vaccines verified and finish up my financial aid paperwork. I hope I can hold on till school starts in the fall. I really don’t feel like working to pay childcare.
My kids are doing pretty good. A and E are starting to get involved with life. E is a happier girl lately. I think most of it has to do with being able to call Dru now. BG was in San Diego for a conference last month and bought her two “best friends” neclaces with whales on them. One is going to Dru, and E is feeling connected to her best friend again. A is done with wrestling and asking what sport he can do now. I suggested baseball but I also want him to work on his “Duty to God” award for church. It’s a young men development program that will help him build his spirituality while he builds his personality and interests. The section that he’s working on now is for the 12 and 13 year olds and he has until his birthday this year to finish it. Then he moves on to the next section. I would like him to finish and he hasn’t been working on it.
BG and I are developing our friendship. We talk nearly everyday. It’s an interesting situation. I’m taking nothing for granted. But he told me recently that he’s not adverse to dating me. Which is a change of tune since as of last may he “was never going to date me”…. He wanted his freedom and I gave it to him. Well, now we talk everyday. The other night he witnessed a huge fatal accident involving several cars and he said debris was EVERYWHERE. I saw pictures of it later and it was bad. Shut down both sides of the freeway. He called me shortly after seeing it to tell me how much he appreciated me and loved Tadpole. However, as encouraging as these things could be, he is still on the hunt for his perfect wife. Of which I am not anything like his perfect fantasy wife. So, I take it as it comes. I don’t look for more and I don’t expect more. I’m just glad we are friends for Tadpole’s sake. His counceling is going well and he seems to be on track for getting his act together again. We work to have Him and Tadpole see each other at least once a month. They already see each other on webcam nearly everyday. It’s cute. A and E are also building a better relationship with their dad, I think. I see better interactions between them. And that’s a good thing.
I am not dating anyone. I’m not dating period. I am focusing on my kids and that’s about it. I’ve let things get out of hand over the last three years and now I want my life to have more structure. I want to teach my older two how to take care of things and cook and mend a button if they need to. They leave the house in a few years and I have not done my part to make sure they will be functioning adults. They are doing well in school, but they need to be able to live on their own.
So, I guess things are going well overall.
