Hello Readers. Yes it is I.

I know it’s been almost two months since I last posted anything and I thought I should catch you all up on what’s been happening. First of all, I have not been posting because I didn’t want to complain. I’ve done alot of that on this blog and it bugs me that I’ve got so much whining on here. And the last few months have been frustrating and I just couldn’t write if it was going to be more complaining and frustrations.

So here is where we stand this July 11th. A has graduated eight grade and is excited to start High School. And I cannot believe I’ve got a kid old enough to be in High School. E is off to seventh grade this year. She is currantly at girls camp this week with our church. She is doing very well.

Tadpole is 14mo. now and is a busy little boy. He scribbles, walks, climbs everything and falls off and jabbers. No regular word use yet, but we hear things occasionally that tell us he knows how to say words and just chooses not to. His favorite thing right now is climbing the organ bench and playing with all the buttons and switches on the organ. He fell yesturday and cut his cheek. It didn’t look severe enough to take him in at the time, but today I can see its a little deeper then I thought. He’ll have a nice scar there. A month ago a baby modeling agent saw him and wanted to sign him up. I didn’t have the money that they wanted and so didn’t do it. I sort of wonder if that scar would stop that sort of thing in the future.

Greyduck found a job this last week and so has ended three months of being a nervous wreck for him. BG also found a new job. In Wisconsin. He couldn’t find one closer in his new field and the job at Epic is just too good to pass up. He has been making consistant efforts to see Tadpole and choosing to move so far from him was hard, but we both agree that another better opportunity is not likely to come anytime soon. I also had to go get a job. I was hoping to hold out till the school year started and my grants and things kicked in, but that was not possible. I start training at US Bank on the 24th, barring some disaster with all the background checking they are doing. I’m gonna be working in their 24 hour call center. Which gives me the flexibility to work, go to school and be there when the kids need me. I was fingerprinted today. Interesting five minutes of my day.

I’m excited about working. Simply because what I expected to be a minimum wage shift turns out to be a much better paying position. With the child support and work I’ll be doubling my monthly income and since I will continue to live in my very cheap apartment you have no idea how excited I am to think that I’ll have more then enough money to take care of all my bills and spoil my kids with the activities they would like to do.

I have alot of very careful scheduling to do and it’s going to take alot of self discipline to make this work. Self discipline is not one of my strong points and will have to be developed. But I have things that HAVE to happen and HAVE to be done. So I have no choice but to either succeed or go back to living hand to mouth again. And I’m tired of making that sacrifice, even if it was for the right reason.

I am not dating anyone. I have some good freinds I keep in touch with but that is about it. You might say I’m emotionally unavailable at the moment. I simply have too much to set in motion and frankly, the men aren’t around and the ones who have shown up have been….disappointing.

So, that’s about it so far. Oh, and one other thing. It’s my birthday friday. I’ll be 33. I don’t feel old enough to be 33, but I also don’t feel young enough to be 33. The time has just flew.

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