A Quiet Corner of the World
A snowy morning and a neglected blog.
One I’m not real sure what to do with. I no longer want a blog that is just a fountain for a flowing series of complaints. I’m just not that negative. Besides, its just bad taste.
This was a very interesting release for the pain endured the last three years, but I’ve grown up and frankly, I’m rather ashamed of some of the things I put on here. I read back through some of my posts and wonder at how insane that first year after the divorce was. Good grief. And I didn’t even tell you guys everything.
This forum allowed me to voice what I was screaming inside my head, but it still inflicted damage in its own way. Anyone who tries to tell you that what you do doesn’t hurt or affect anyone is selling something.
I’ve been pondering for months what to put here. Unsure and a little wary to let more sacred thoughts out there.
This year though, is a year for discovery about myself. Spiritually I’m taking a harder look at myself. Not in discovering what I believe, but becoming more dedicated to what I believe. My theology has a very specific view of the world, and I’m not opening myself up to the full realities of that blessing. Through the Gift of the Holy Ghost (Holy Spirit for you NT types) we have the blessing of personal revelation. Direct communication with our Heavenly Father and I have been shutting myself off from that. Silly really, but sometimes, I’m a silly person. Not because I think God doesn’t want to talk to me or doesn’t care, but because I haven’t been brave enough to face those things about myself that I’ve been too lazy to change. And one thing that is constant about regular contact with God. You change. That relationship can’t help but change you.
I’m currantly reading Sherri Dew’s book ‘No Doubt About It’. What a great book. Sherri Dew is currantly the CEO of Deseret Books. A Publishing Company that primarly prints LDS authors and musicians. She was once a councelor in the General Relief Society Presidency. I believe its the biggest and oldest women’s organization in the world. Just to give my non lds readers a point of reference. The Relief Society is the female arm of our church, where the Priesthood is the male arm of the church. Our church simply could not function without them. the RS includes every female member of the church over 18. Each ward has a RS presidency which oversees the running of this program in their congregation, The General RS Presidency oversees the entire program that each ward then impliments at the ward level. So, Sherri has traveled all over talking and speaking to women around the world. SHe’s a fantastic speaker and it shows in her writing.
The book is about realizing that we are special daughters of God who have the right to contact and direction from our Heavenly Father in all things. To gain that peace and confidence that we are not alone as we face all the slings and arrows of mortality. If we but open that door to blessings we are entitled to.
Its been a great read.
