The interesting thing about pain and loss is that its also an opportunity to learn how to lean on the Lord. however, our fear and distrust can interfere even in that relationship.

And because we go into hiding, we go places and do things we would never have done otherwise. When I went into my black year the year of my divorce and my dads death, I hid emotionally from everything. My kids went from having a very involved mom to one who hid in her bedroom all the time. I spent every moment online hiding from pain. Doing things and talking to people I wouldn’t have given the time of day to before. I stopped praying, I stopped reading my scriptures and I didn’t keep the Lord close. And I spiraled.

And through all that the Lord stayed by my side. He was there to pick me up when I hit rock bottom. If we want to get out of those dark places, we cannot do it alone. And maybe that is why we are allowed to go into those dark places. So that we can become better and gain a deeper understanding of our spiritual selves if we but open our heart.

I still struggle.

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