One of these days I’ll actually do my chores on a regular basis and not because company is coming over. I hate cleaning house, just hate it. And I’m not good at motivating myself to do it. For one, I can ignore it. And two, I don’t care most days. I’m a pack rat, so nothing gets thrown away but since I’m lazy nothing gets put away either. When I see a room, I see everything that needs to be done to get it spotless, and maybe that’s the problem. They say that perfectionists often never start cause they can see all the work necessary to be perfect and it’s too much at once to do, so they never start. That may be, but then I may be lazy too.

“Oh, well” is my life’s mantra is seems, I’ve been saying that for years. As the oldest of seven kids, you can’t get to wrapped up in possessions, cause it all gets handed down to the sibs, you can’t expect your parents to always go to every concert, play, or meeting cause of the babies at home. “OH, well” keeps you from feeling hurt, but it also makes you complacent. And that’s something I have to change. I have been very complacent most of my life, and I need to change that.

However taking a stand is not easy. That may be why I started with relgion when I started defining who I am. It was something I knew, and it was something I needed to define for myself as true or not. My husband is agnostic leaning towards atheism, repulsed by the ongoing “discussions” of the “i’m right and your not but hell if I’m going to live what I preach” set. Which I don’t blame him, I can completely understand that. But I have always known that God was there, and I needed to makes sure I knew what was up. My kids were coming upon the age of baptism, which in Mormon terms is eight years old. And I needed to have a firm knowledge of what I was teaching my kids. Up until a couple of years ago, I was mormon cause nothing else made sense, but I had never had that “confirming” witness that speaks to your spirit and tells you with no doubt what is right or not. That started a journey that I’m not going to really get into today, cause this post is too long already, but lets just say that I’m still mormon. (grin)

What does relgion have to do with chores? Simple, it’s about becoming what we want to be. Getting rid of stupid hang-ups like “oh well” and for some maybe relgion is that hang-up, especially if your not willing to live what you preach, or believe “just in case”. I’m striving to become better then I am now, and that means having a house that runs smoothly, and pride in what I do. I can no longer afford to ignore what I don’t want to, and wait until the guests are coming. As all of us procrastinators know, you never get the job done like you want it to be when you wait till the last minute. But like all great procrastinators, we can say it much better then we walk it. So here is to every procrastinator who hates where they are and wants to change. So I’m starting with an hour a day, one hour to do my chores adn then stop, no matter where I am, my house is small enough and it can be done.

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