Weekends and Goodbyes
This weekend started off rather busy. I got the bed for Karel’s bedroom that morning and then stowed it in the living room until such time as we could get the computer room cleaned up. Then I had an event to go to.
It was a late evening but short event and I got home on the stroke of twelve, literally. It was 12:02am when I walked in the door. I was at the Heathman Hotel in downtown and it only takes me ten minutes to get downtown from my house. So it was nice getting home before 1 or 2 in the morning. On the down side I had to be in Salem at noon for my next event.
I was at the Oregon State Fairgrounds for this particular wedding reception, 300 people were in attendance. I love big weddings, when you have that many people, it’s pretty much guarenteed that you’ll have no problem with dancers. Wrong. The bride and groom really didn’t want much in the way of icebreakers. But then everyone else was wondering why my dance floor was so empty so often. Well, that’s what happens when your competing with daylight, it was an afternoon wedding and little or no ice breakers. I did manage to sneak in the hokey pokey. I play it as a couples dance, I get them up there and they don’t know what’s coming. And since the couples are facing each other, it can get naughty, and does, on occasion. Overall though, everyone had a good time, I played good music even if they didn’t dance much and I did have the most relaxed bride and groom I’ve dealth with in a long time. Actually both of my couples this weekend were very relaxed, which is nice when you have to bully them through all the wedding protocols. *grin*
Because it was an afternoon wedding, I was home before ten o’clock, a very rare occurance. And since today , being the 22nd, was our introduction anniversary, I asked Karel for one last date as husband and wife. So we went to Shari’s for some snacky goodness and had a very nice time enjoying each others company. When Karel and I left the house this morning, we knew that it was goodbye to the life we once knew. Now we are just going to be friends, and hopefully we will not drive each other crazy.
I realize that Karel probably hasn’t been “in love” with me for a long time, while the sound of his voice can still make my pulse race with excitment. I do know that he does love me if only as the mother of his kids. And as I take these fledgling steps into my new life I hold onto that love to give me courage. Because I have a hard time finding it sometimes. It’s just really hard to say goodbye to something that I spent so much time trying to build and cultivate.
I was set apart in my new calling as Relief Society secretary and as the four of us women were given blessings to have the Spirit with us and to have the strenght to face the challenges we were taking on and a host of other wonderful things, I couldn’t help but feel that I was starting a new life as I was putting to rest an old one. To say the least today has been a very weepy day for me.
Exuse me, I need some tissues.
So now I have a bedroom that I sleep in by myself and school starting this week and two callings at church to fulfil and kids to babysit and I have to get on the ball as PTA president for our school and figure out how to get more money out of my work. Gee, you think I have enough to do? NO? me neither. And to top it all off, Richard, my friend from church told me that someone approached him with a nasty assumption about him and I because of the dance class we are taking. So Richard isn’t going to continue the dance class so that people won’t have a reason to gossip. I assured Richard that I didn’t feel that we were anything more then just friends and I was really sad that he felt he needed to quit the dance class. I feel really bad about this because he’s the one who signed up for the class first. It doesn’t help that he is currantly our most elegible bachelor at church. I know some people at church who have speculated on how long it will take him to get married. (rolls eyes) If I’m not careful here, I’ll lose him as a friend. And I don’t have very many of them to lose.
